Good times, bad times

Up until now it's been all go, and I've been wound up and raring to go. Today was spent doing van-related things, basically insulating the inside so that it won't be full of condensation. Detailed stuff and necessary, but it felt like a sidetrack or a detour. I realised the task I've taken on, and how much more there is to go, and I've only made progress on something barely relevant like the damn van. Why didn't I just go with a £500 Volvo estate and strap things on the top, saving cash for the crucial things? Couldn't find anywhere to go look at windsurf gear that was open today and close enough to make a trip possible in the limited time available, so didn't even get a blast from that. This adrenaline-charged life is quite risky, because downers can really knock you back.

I must keep reminding myself about how this is going to work.

Whereas previously I've lived off occasional trips to foreign places i.e. Dahab and enjoyed seven days or so solid surfing, that doesn't seem sufficiently regular, frequent or even enough. So, get going windsurfing in UK as much as I can, on the sea, with people who can help me improve. Then take trips to constantly windy, wavy places and get even better. The van helps with this, giving me flexibility and convenience - I can drive to Tarifa for example, or anywhere else for that matter. Cool. Probably won't be doing much of that in reality, because of the limited time available, but the idea's nice to carry around in one's head. Meanwhile driving to the South coast, or anywhere else in the UK when it's windy, is a fine target, and will teach me lots.